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A Little Something For Me

by Claire on July 12, 2011

6 - The Ride Back - CopyIn the past few months, since all the upheaval in my family’s lives – that is, moving, buying, and remodeling homes – there has been very little time for me. There was, however, a gentleman that appeared out of nowhere and started pursuing me. I won’t go into much detail other than that I’d known him as an acquaintance for several years and thought he was pretty nice. We tried to have a relationship. #fail. Actually, he “resigned” faster than we could even get it started. WTH? I have no idea why other than the myriad of reasons that he cited of too much in my life ahead of him in priority (not really true, but everyone has their own perceptions) and it was too hard for him. Ouch (a lot of ouch) and next.

After that, and all the other stuff, I realized it was time for me. Seriously. For reals,  this time. I had some savings set aside to eradicate my backyard wilderness and turn it into an outdoor living space worthy of an episode of Desperate Landscapes. The work involved however started to feel like just another chore that would never get done and besides, I realized that no one ever comes over to visit anyway, so what the hell? All that would happen is that I would continue to stay at home, stare at the gazillion things needing done around here, get depressed, isolate, and eat. None of that supported my continued goal for a healthy lifestyle and fitness. (And, I’ll save most of this for a different blog post, I’ve gained 10 pounds in the last year and a half that I now have to re-lose making me 20 pounds from goal. Ugh.)

1 - Claire on ride to tulipsIf you know me, you know I love bicycling. My beloved bike – a Giant Cypress W – has been a good and steady friend to me, but I busted the front brakes slinging it in and out of the back of my SUV and tangling the handlebars all around. When I dropped it off at the LBS (local bike shop) to be fixed, I stopped for a bit to chat with one of the lady bike geeks there. I started to drool over a faster, slicker Cannondale. I couldn’t get that pretty bike out of my head. I was obsessed. I realized that this was the best way to spend my money right now. Instant gratification and spoiling of MOI. Me. Only me.

Two days later, test riding three different bikes and hours talking to aforementioned lady bike geek, this sweet thing is mine.

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Yes, it’s not a Cannondale, but this baby is lighter than the Cannondale. It’s a Giant Rapid 3. I upgraded the grips, the saddle, and Wednesday, I’ll be upgrading the pedals. (Separately, I ordered a tow hitch and bike rack for the SUV.) I also splurged on some new biking shoes that are the clipless/cleatless type – I guess that’s how you describe them. They clip onto the pedals, but you can’t see from the soles where they clip in. They look like normal shoes. But oh, so cute! And you know a girl’s gotta have cute shoes.

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Talk about an upgrade in bikes. In two days, I put 26 miles on this baby and oh. my. god. She’s fast, smooth, light, and breezy. Did I mention FUN?

My oldest went on the inaugural ride with me and we had a BLAST.

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If you bike at all, you know about the convention you must follow when you bike on a path and pass others. If you don’t bike, I’ll tell you… as you pass, you pass on the left and you are supposed to either ring a bell or yell out “On your left” as you pass, so you don’t startle the walkers or slower bikers, and so they know to move to the right. In the past, I’ve been the slower rider. The bikers on the road bikes going hella fast always yell out the loudest (and often the rudest) and startle me.

This time, with my daughter, she took off ahead of me, and I started on the bike and quickly moved up the gears and in no time, I was the one going hella fast and passing her. I started cracking up hysterically and could barely get it out without laughing my ass off as I passed her and shouted “ON YOUR LEFT!” followed by wild laughter. Hi.lar.ious.

Maybe you had to be there.

“You’re a nerd” my daughter uttered. Yep, that’s me. And proud of it.

Expect to hear a lot more from me as I start this wonderful relationship with my bike. At least it won’t be scared to death of what else is going on in my life.

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Retail Therapy & Grandkids Cure All Sorrows

by Claire on November 28, 2009

So, my evening last night pretty much sucked and didn’t turn out at all like I anticipated. I won’t go into details other than to say I felt very much betrayed by someone very close to me and essentially heard their message loud and clear. There is a saying, “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” Well, I’m no longer going to participate in the insanity of this situation, but gently, and lovingly, set my boundaries, keep my support system close by, and do what I need to do for myself, while staying available to this person, should they ever decide to ask for my help. There is nothing else I can do when another person chooses something I consider ill-advised. It is, after all, their life, not mine.

That said, today was a “take care of yourself” day, and hence involved a little retail therapy, some time with my little grandsons, and my daughter and son-in-law. I believe it must be a law of nature that no one can be unhappy around a small child. These two boys light up my life in a way no one else does. To walk into a room and see a two year old jump up and down, squealing “Mimi!”, only melts away the worries, sadness, and loneliness. 

One of the stops we made was at Pacific Fabrics where I spied – actually, Cindy spied it – the fabric I’m going to try making my plaid dress out of. (I purposely left all the extraneous stuff in the picture so you could see the size of the plaid. I was too lazy to go upstairs and get a ruler.) I couldn’t find the fabric like in the pattern, so this will do just fine.

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I like this fabric because it has a small amount of spandex in it – great for a fitted dress. I’ll probably line it fully so that the fabric isn’t itchy next to my skin. Haven’t completely decided though.

And my new boots also arrived today. I’m thinking they will look awesome with this dress, and some sort of jacket (still undecided.)

And to end on a lighthearted note… I’m thinking of making this fabric into a pillowcase for myself. Then I can say I’ve had multiple men in my bed at one time.

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